People CAN change...

 You always hear the expression, "people dont change"....well, I disagree. Given the right circumstances, a person can change, depending on the person. A good person can go bad and a bad person can become good.

Take me for example; I was a serial cheater. I would be faithful for a while but regardless of how the person treated me, I always had one foot outside the door. I was like that in my last relationship, thought I was gonna be ok but this young lady, I fell in love with. Not just her but her family as well, sigh. Well, when she left, it wasnt like the rest. I didnt have that "see you later" mentality' This time it hurt, I hurt...I had fallen in love with her. I wanted and needed her in my life, I opened up more of myself to her than I ever have with anyone else.

 Now, we are no longer together and realize WHY I never fell IN LOVE before, this shit hurts. But I have changed, I want love, I wanna be loved. I want to be open and honest about all I do. But I came to the LIGHT too late. Had I know my selfish actions would have had this outcome, abd be filled with so much pain, I wouldn't been THAT person. Love isnt suppose to hurt like this.

Damn.

Sometimes....

Sometimes,

I want to feel loved and wanted

Thats all

sleep needed

Its 1:00am and im wide awake. Havent been able to sleep since this Friday, there is too much too much commotion in my head and heart. As soon as one dies down, the other starts. Better yet, when they work in unison to keep me awake....uuugh. I know the pain will pass, eventually, but right now it hurts like hell. There will never be another in my like that, and everything will lead to comparisons, of which they will fall short. It will be tough going from EVERYTHING clicking, to somethings clicking. Not sure when this will pass but I need it to hurry and run its course. It needs to go so I can sleep peacefully again. I want to close my eyes without being bombarded by the images or the yearning.

Honestly, I just want to find some peace.

Soulgasm

 Im a very sexual being, and with the RIGHT woman, sex can be a very spiritual thing. For me, sex goes deeper than the actual act of: penis being thrust in and out of a vagina. Not that i dont enjoy THAT part....but there is soooo much more involved. For me, its about the touch. So much can be exchanged by simple touching the flesh in a sensual manner.

I recently experienced a Soulgasm during an early morning encounter with two female friends. And all it took was fingers finding the right area on my body. Ok, it also took us having a connection and me being MENTALLY OPEN to the experience.

You can change someone's whole mood, by simply running your fingers over certain parts of the body. This is an action, that if done properly, can change a persons whole outlook sex. Now, i dont mean, run your fingers over someone's body as if your kneading bread....No! This MUST be done slowly, in a manner in which you are barely touching the flesh. If the other person is MENTALLY OPEN, this experience will send waves of stimulation throughout your lovers body....and yours as well.

My moment was achieved by two things: 1. a connection with the female parties involved. 2. a level of comfort with them. 3. extra sensitivity because of  body piercings. 

We had just completed a position change, of them on top to me on top, when one of the women touched my right nipple with her index finger. This action cause me to shudder and released a slow moan. With me, on my knees, bending over her, palms on the mattress....she began running her fingers over my nipples at various rates of speed, while pinching them as well. From the nectar escaping her fountain, i wasn't the ONLY one stimulated by this action. Four minutes into this physical foreplay, i released a moan....so low, so deep...it had to come from my SOUL. My body, shuddered, as if i had just had a physical orgasm. 

With me panting, on weak knees attempting to regain composure, the other female party uttered a, 'wow' and 'damn'...and proclaiming, 'that was hot'.

To this day,  i reflect on that moment in awe. I had NEVER experienced such satisfaction from being stimulated in that fashion. So many things coming together to create that moment, my body trembles slightly just thinking about it. Right time, right person (or persons), i hope to experience that again.

To she, who helped me experience that, it just doesnt seem sufficient to say, 'thank you'. i am forever in your debt. 

And so...

Peace and blessing,

 Once upon a time, i had a blogger account under another name....and even though i have a web site, i decided to come back. this is just a place for me to post whatever comes to my politically incorrect mind. Maybe you will like it, maybe you wont, i really dont care. Hell, i dont even know how often this blog will be used but it will be 100% me...

And sooooo.....

We begin.